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A ghost from my past...

I had a disturbing dream.

The ex that caused my PTSD was in it. I was in a tea convention on photographer assignment. I was taking photographs of the technology, the new tea blends, and the company kiosks. He was behind me, complaining about something.

I saw a teamaker, specifically the model I had at home, for rock bottom price. I bought it for myself. Instantly, he was at my side.

"Why did you buy that? Why did you buy something for yourself? Why didn't you buy something for me? Why would you do that?" This went on for the remainder of the dream, him berating me for doing something for myself, even when I resumed my assignment.

I woke up shaking, guilted over a purchase I made over a year ago by a man I've not seen in over five years. Disgusted with myself. What the fuck is he doing in my head?

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seriouslymegan
Jul. 9th, 2017 12:44 am (UTC)

Is there maybe something going on that might have brought these feelings/memories up? I hope you get some restful sleep tonight. <3

railenthe
Jul. 14th, 2017 05:43 am (UTC)
The dreams let up a bit,, but sleep has been cruddy. It's just been a stressful week.
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